brandon wyatt <3 you are the most.amazing person in this world. i really couldnt do it without you anymor ei know its only been four and a half short months but i feel like i have known you a lifetime, i trust you with my life baby cakes and i would give you the world if i could. i knwo before i have said that it is possible to live without someone. yeah i still agree with that its possible but its something i hope i never have to go through. ihope i live one day less then you so i will never have to know what its like to be without you for a day. <3 i have never met someone who would bend over backwards for anyone that needs it. someone that smiles even when everything in there life is screwed up at the moment. someone who will listen to me cry night after night cuz my life isnt the way i think it should exactly be. brandon im not playing you are the most amazing person in this world. i see why all these girls wanna be with you. there crazy not to. im sorry that i am so jealous its just that i have never met someone so amazing in my life. and i dont know what to do weather i should be scared of losing you or let you go to see if you would come back. i  appriciate everything you do for my family it means the world to me just liek you to. i love you so much brandon wyatt and im hoping htat this really is forever baby<3

woah, update ya digg?

well a lot has happened since i last wrote. okay for starters for the whole summer of 2006 i had some amazing best friends right? [[ brittany && nathan ]] we were always together. we swore that nothing would ruin our friendship && we really did believe it. but after a few months we grew apart. well actually they started dating and didnt want me around. but whatever im getting over it. when eveyrthing went wrong i still had my cousin to turn to right..  well then my boyfriend JEFF and her boyfriend KEVIN always used to come to my house and we would all hang out. well kevin didnt want to date her anymore but still wanted to be friends with her. but her being her didnt believe in being friends with exes lame right. so i guess therefor i wasnt aloud to be friends with him, well i didnt know this at the time so me and him still talked well that pissed her off and she wanted me out of her life. so within like 3 months i completely lost my three best firends. i really didnt thinki would be able to make it through depression. but then i met three amazing people , well four actaully. who quickly became my best friends. the first three go by brooke sanders, duckface linquini (( brandon tucker )) && justin sprow. i cant thank these kids enough for being there when i needed them most. not only them but online i met some boy who i now call the love of my life, my boyfriend brandon cullipher. i really couldnt have made it through without these four. brooke for fun, duckface for adventure, justin for cracken on =] and brandon for serious talks. thanks guys =]

--> well now i live in new york and spend almost every day with brandon wyatt<3 i really do think i know what love is now. im not sure cuz eveyrone says that being only 16 you cant know what love is. but i really think i do. if its not love then its my magic<3

Me and brook murphy really dont talk anymore. i dont like what shes about i miss her alot but i dunno i really wish she wasnt going down the road she is.. -=/

my main point of this is that im happy again =]

So today ::

me adn brandon hung out this morning i turned applilcations in for like mcdonalds and BK and stuff. lame right and then around noon we went with kari to get her hair done adn walked around moorseville. =] when we came home we got mom and wnt to the fair. my first time going tot hat one =] it was alright i guess. <3 ill write tomorrow. it should be interesting anyways me and brandon are going to my dadss <3 love

 Teenage years
Big dreams..stupid fights
sleep days...endless nights
Broken hearts...mascara tears
cell phone bills...report card fears
Clothes too tight...shoes to0 high
out pastcurfew...another lie
eyeshadow color...midnight black
lip gloss flavor...cherry attack
belts with stars...boys with cars
just a taste of teenage years...
when your biggest problems..
are too small for tears...¢¾

Today was a lazy day; i was on the fone til like 3 i spose with hayden; kinda sucked tho cuz nothing extremely funny happened so it was just boring ha; so i got up at 11:55 and realized i wasnt ready to be awake yet so i slept on the couch til almost 1.  Then around like one thirty i got online and talked to hayden til almost 3 got off for a while cleaned my room then got back on at like four thirty and found some quotes and now im going to get off and go to grandmas and get on and print them for my bulliten board...something to do

Love you

Lost

Like i really dont know what to do anymore its so weird now that jasons outta my life..its just like eveyrhtings changing too quick now-a-days...so i started likeing this other kid right..&& he turned out to be a loser..&& then now its hayden && everyones maken this big deal about it cuz everyones obsessed with him so i think im just going to stop liking him its just like so hard to deal with everyones drama..like courtney shes what i was afraid of hurting but now its just like idk cuz shes pissed at me cuz i TALK to him okay its not like im going out and fucking him or something its just b/s so fucken stupid i dont know anymore!! i think im just going to quit liking people cuz this shit always happens...except i dont think the guy ever realizes how much he means to me..its like i tell him over and over and i try to get it through his head but i just think it goes in one ear and out the other and i think thats whats going on with hayden too i think hes confused about his life because hes such a sweetie he doesnt wanna hurt anyone witch i understand that part but from what hes telling me these girls are saying to him i think he just gets peoples hopes up because like other wise where else would all these girls get this stuff from? its just like sooooo confusing so yea...

 Later

MONGO!